Recently i'm watching Rainie Yang's Ai Jiu Zai Yi Qi. Inside this Ou Xiang Ju there's a very nice- sad song by Liu Li Yang, Yi Ge Ren Jiu Hao. The lyrics of this song is meaningful but its impossible i can be alone forever like wat the lyrics mean unless i've been punished, if not no way. Ever since i start working at this country club, i realise that actually i don't mind to have an uncle as my bf. If he have a family already, i don't mind to be his mistress cos' he will know how to shower me with love and care. It's not a proud and honour thing to do but anyway i say only... I'm not those uncles' cup of tea too. I'm going to slow down on the pace i'm moving now. Everything got to start from zero. Tired, tired, tired...................................

tired of my life recently...

Work, home then work, home then work, home then work, home then work, home. This type of repeated cycle, really very irks. I don't like what i'm having now. *Sign* I have to tone down abit more than abit. I realise that i'm not a very good friend to alot of so called friends... Feels like throwing away my hp line... Feels like isolating myself from everyone... Feels like making friends all over again... Feels like booking a chalet and MIA for a couple of days... Feels like... Feels like... Feels like...

I'm getting sick and tired of YOU!!!

Sometime i really wonder what am i to you?? Am i your GF or am i just another girl to fulfil your needs?? Always ask you a question, you can't even answer it directly. Is it because of your age? Or can i assumed you are just so confident in yourself(there's plenty of girl out there waiting for me, without you, i still can survive...) How well does your friend know you? I can say that you definitely have the look and the built but you are not a reliable person. Somehow when i requested to break because of our incompatibilities, you can answer me " not match, must break meh?" Then don't break continue to waste our time and continue to have quality fun. I don't understand why must you tell me all of your so-called good points even before we are together. Cos' after we are together, you are not what you said. All these things if i'm not an idiot or moron, i will definitely see it wth my own eyes and sense it with my own heart. You told me everything before hand and now i understand you les, i finds that you are a horrible bf. I finds that your thinking is like a 16yrs old boy. I think we should go our way. I'm not a beauty nor a perfect person but not to the extend i need you as my bf.

Something i hate abt boyfriend

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Guys who....
- doesn't have a proper or stable job
- can sleep till 3 or 4plus everyday
- don't have the money to even take transport
- cannot even afford to eat
- can give so much excuses for the things that he have done wrong
- see his face bigger than a Globe
- just hang the phone for nothing and won't call you back again
- don't have the sense of time
- thinks that with $1300 income, he can actually afford to have a baby
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I have this so called boyfriend recently. When we weren't attached to each other, i never see his flaws. But now..... He's the type of guy who thinks highly of himself- never give me a chance to even comment about the things he said?? Its ridiculously... Argh!!! He's not a rich man son but he love to tell me how rich is his unrelated god-father and what type of expensive sports car his sister's friends driving. He keep reminding me that he will get his license this april and his god-father will so called give him a BM to drive. He tells me how good he treats his ex-girlfriends and he has never raise his voice on them at all. Indeed, one of the girl drop him a msg @facebook saying that she treasure the 4yrs relationship and stuff... But i just tell him off. What so good about you? You got nothing i find its good and i believe she's still young at that point of time. You are totally a very chuiz bf!! He can just smile at me. He can don't ring me for the whole day. The next day, i have to call him to check whether he knows who i am or not. When ask if u claim that you love me, why can you afford to not calling me? He replied, " normally when i'm forcusing on my stuff, i will forget about everything." LOLz... The night he didn't call me, he was at St.James having fun. In his eyes, i cannot see any reliability. Ask him how much he knows abot me, he only tell me things i like and dislike to eat. Want to break-up with him, he say no because there's no reason for us to break-up. Haha, i just feel like i'm talking to a kids.